Dan and Kerry and Everyone Else

When I drove 40 miles north west of Charlotte, North Carolina, I saw a shack with a solo smoker out front, two storied locals were sitting beside it waiting for a passerby to pull over for their legendary BBQ. I saw pick up trucks with confederate bumper stickers, billboards advertising Jesus, just Jesus. I counted the number of different fried chicken destinations at every mile marker, wondering how mine was going to break through. I saw ads for gun shops and gun shows, scratch made biscuits, sweet tea, NASCAR, and beach chairs for sale on the side of the road.

A couple hundred miles further north, as I drove to and through Ripley, West Virginia, I saw rolling hills gradually growing into mountains. I saw forests populated with nothing more than deer hunters and their prey. I smelled gravy, spied camouflage, and heard rural poverty speak with a particular twang. I wondered how median household incomes of $20,000 can keep the Bob Evans, gas station, church, Holiday Inn Express, and McDonald's in town in business. And I soaked up the enthusiasm of hopeful young cheerleaders on the road to Disney World and a way out.

Thousands of miles south west, in Phoenix, Arizona, I saw purple mountains, cacti soaking up the desert sun, and hikers who knew every rock on Squaw Peak. I saw baseball stadiums, an enthusiastic network of fans who had arrived for the season, and the ball signed by Kris Bryant that Peter brought home from a game. I saw signs for Masses in English and Spanish and sensed wall lovers and wall haters. I rubbed lotion on my bronze son, and doubled up on my sunburned daughter. I felt the spirits of golden age movie stars, past presidents and a legendary architect and his sprites around the property of the Biltmore Hotel.

Back home in Chicagoland, I was once again greeted by a blue flat landscape interrupted only by some of the tallest buildings in the country starkly standing in defiance of nature. I saw the cold waters of Lake Michigan and a river waiting for its green dye. I drove by the remnants of a prairie that used to cover the state, through traffic and beside the trains trying to beat it. I sat down at my cube for a second, then rushed around with the rest of the hardworking people in my office. I thought about deep dish pizza, hot dogs, Fannie May, Rahm, and an Irish tradition that brings the divides of a big city together.

All the way to the northeast, Philadelphia was filled with historic markers, cheese steaks, and angry Eagles fans. I saw Abraham Lincoln presiding over the Union League's elite members and diverse city sidewalks slick from the melting snow. I looked up at William Penn who was staring down at Benjamin Franklin's parkway. I ran up the Rocky steps and saluted the statue that protects them. I danced to Neil Diamond and his band, I put on my robe at the Ritz and had a Bellini. I walked into Saint Augustine on Fourth Street and watched one of my favorite couples saying 'I do' in front of a congregation that characterized the city's branded brotherly love.

It was in Philly, my last stop of the week, that my friends, Dan and Kerry, brought together people from Seattle to South Bend, Amarillo to Austin, Denver to Detroit, and the Big Apple to the Big Shoulders; they brought together bankers and branders, cattlemen and car men, skiers and the doctors that take care of their knees, high tech companies and their instruments of obstruction, an Army ranger and an Air Force man, darling little cousins and their daring 94 year old Aunt Eleanor, proud parents, a little sister who's world was her big sister, and an eloquent and authentic best man who brought everyone together.

    

During the blessing before the meal, the priest described the elaborate banquet at the perfectly themed Union Club as a reflection of the heavenly one we await. And as I reflect on my week that took me on eight flights, through five states, and back and forth between three time zones, the priests comments reinforce how much we need people like Dan and Kerry and events like their wedding to bridge the sometimes polarizing credos we carry, from coast to coast, from left to right to those of us that stay firmly in the center. 

Dan and Kerry - I wish you a lifetime of happiness filled with all that I experienced this weekend: great music and electric dance floors, steaks for dinner and dessert, champagne and the bourbon after, schooners, skiers, stages, love, laughter, and family and friends that will always be there for you.

Lo.

Vacation Time

The days are getting a little longer in Chicago, which means I'm more and more able to squeeze in a walk with my kids after work. On Monday, we did just that. I walked, Mary rode her trike, and Bobby drove his car close behind.

'Where we goin, Mary?' Bobby asked. 

'To Ryan's house.' 

'Okay. To Ryan's house,' he replied.

They made it as far as the playground up the street from our house. They ran around while I soaked up the last sunlight of the day, thankful that spring had nearly arrived. 

As it got darker, I coaxed them onto their preferred modes of transportation and toward our house once again. As Mary looked up from the handlebars of her trike, she saw a car with a sign on its roof. It was a student driver, but without being able to read you could mistake it for a taxi cab or a delivery vehicle. 

Mary turned back to me and said, 'hey Mom, how about let's do a pizza tonight, okay?' 

I chuckled, hating to disappoint her with my answer too: 'We're having leftovers.' 

In reality, a pizza sounded great. And easier than a myriad of trips to the microwave. 

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Peter and I used to consider dinner time our "special time." There was something nearly sacred about it. During work, I would find a new recipe, something we hadn't tried yet. I would make a list of groceries for Peter to pick up on the way home. We would call each other on the commute, ensuring we hadn't forgotten anything. Say a bottle of wine. 

It was just the two of us. We would change out of coats, ties, dresses, and nylons, listen to a record, chop, saute, and simmer together, while sipping the stress of another day at the office away. We might sit down to dinner at 7:30 or 8:00. If the meal was particularly plate worthy, I would photograph it, potentially adding its noteworthiness to my blog the following morning. We were foodies, culinarians, and snobs seven days a week and it was glorious. 

Nowadays, I shop with the masses every Sunday after church, trying to plan five or six meals for the week. They are all recipes that I know by heart and by habit. All executable in 30 minutes or less. Even if the dinner turns out better than usual, even if the glass of wine that accompanies it is perfectly paired, there is no photography and no boasting, because there is never anything long, luxurious, or leisurely about dinner. 

I get up at least ten times during any one sitting. Most nights, Mary and Bobby don't even like what I cook. I occasionally screw up these days, to the dismay of Peter. I've resorted to BLTs and tuna salad sandwiches too frequently. And Lou Malnatti is sometimes my best friend. There's a reason Mary knew what that type of car typically means. 

"Special time" is more like survival time lately ... that is until everyone is silenced with an ice cream cone.

So ... with that said, I've discovered the other special time that Peter and I need to set aside in our lives as frequently as possible. It's called vacation time. Yesterday afternoon, we flew the friendly skies all the way to a beautiful, historic resort in Phoenix. Everyone was excited and for the most part on their best behavior. 

Here, poolside, while our kids are splashing and staying afloat in the water, Peter and I will have a drink and dinner, and relax like we used to. And I guarantee as we are flying home, back to the chaos of our every day, I will be planning our next vacation. 

Lo. 

Today and To Maui

Growing up, I occasionally accompanied my Mom to her office on Saturday mornings. The 38th floor of the Oxford Center Building was quiet on the weekends, nearly empty save a few other over achieving name partners racking up extra billable hours. In the privacy of her office, my mom would check her mail, add a couple more 'period and paragraph' commands to her dictation, top the leaning tower of tiny tapes awaiting her secretary, and pack up a couple heavy brown files to export home. She used to joke that lawyers never needed to lift weights. 

In the meantime, I would venture to the firm's supply closet. Past the library, around the corner from the mini basketball hoop, across from the break room which was always stocked with hot chocolate packets, were the double doors to heaven. Shelves and shelves lined with the office manager's finest handiwork. I would sift through manila folders, transparency sheets, legal pads, paper clips, highlighters and Bic pens, gathering must haves to complete my imaginary, entrepreneurial line of work. 

Back in my mom's office, I would transcribe my own notes while my Mom dictated hers. I would punch holes, index, and file while my Mom reassembled the parts of her latest case. I would envision my path to a corner office just as my Mom had paved her own.

*** 

On Monday morning, I was packing my bag to head out of town for the week. First stop Charlotte, then on to L.A. Mary came upstairs to let me know she had just 'finished her work too.' She told me she had needed to do a couple things. I chuckled. 

Her 'work' is encapsulated in the little freebie notebooks I bring home from the office; volumes of them at this point. She will scribble incomprehensible notes, filling up every line of a single page while narrating all kinds of stuff: messages to her classmates and cousins, tips on dancing, art projects, and making pancakes, her schedule over the next month, and anything else that is at the top of her inquisitive mind. 

She is clearly mimicking me. And recently, as I've found myself opening my laptop more at home, Mary and I will do early morning work together in the dim light of the living room. The process takes me back to the Saturdays I spent with my mom downtown. 

I can't find anything negative about it. In fact, when I was young I found the mother / daughter time enjoyable and even motivating. But similar to me, Mary will finish her 'work' before I do. I'll ask her for one more second, one more finishing touch, one more 'save', 'hit send', 'okay shutting down,' 'patience, please.' I can remember my Mom saying, 'one more thing' as well.  

But at the close of last week, my VP reminded me to not only have a weekend, but to enjoy it. 

I responded, 'these days, it's hard to do that.' 

His reply, '...but important to try.' 

So I did. I closed my computer on Saturday morning, once and for all, got down on the ground and just played with my kids. We went bike riding, made Valentines, and hung out at the playground. I focused on my husband's line of work instead of my own at his bank dinner followed by several games of Bocce on Saturday night. And the icing on the cake, I helped Peter's family celebrate his Oma's 90th birthday party on Sunday. 

As I fly from point A to point B this morning, I've been reflecting on the people around the table on Sunday. Oma's sons, grand kids, and great grand babies. Her close friends; the people who have always relieved the stress of life, instead of applied it.  

I've been thinking about the words summarized in a champagne toast dedicated to her. It was about the cookies and cakes she made to sweeten a day, the socks and blankets she knitted to warm a heart, the offshore adventures documented in photo albums, the laughter contrasted with the straight German practicality she was raised with, the people and animals, here and in heaven, who have been touched by her kindness and generosity.  

And I've been thinking about getting to 90, about weekends, vacations and practicing aloha on the weekdays that can become overwhelming. About closing my computer a little more often to find the sun, blue skies, sandy beaches, and peaceful mantra that attracted Peter's grandma to the shores of Hawaii over the years. 

About how mother / daughter time should be grounded most in a love of life and those in it, which in my case, just happens to include a love of my job at times. 

Lo.